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Where to from here……

It has been feeling like life has been going on too nicely. i think its time to give you some background on our situation. i am sure there are others out there who did not sign up for this, i know i didnt, but i am here and i am sure going to fight for my child.

My now 15 year old daughter was diagnosed with Obsessive Compulsive Disorder a little over a year ago. Now i was not really surprised by this, and at the same time shattered by the news.
i always had an inkling that something was not right but i thought it was autism or aspergers. but no, it turned out to be OCD. At age 13 years she seemed to have been ‘changed’ almost over night. she became over sensitive , hyper vigilant that anyone would see or hear us(the family). We were it seemed, to be the only family with weird things going on, which i think translates to “normal” family life. if someone knows what normal is, please share.

At age 14 she became grossed out by her younger brother. He wasnt cute like others younger siblings, (he happens to be 20 months younger than her). He always seemed to have ‘sticky’ hands and everything he touched became ‘sticky’, he became the annoying little brother. As this went on she bacame increasingly mean and nasty to him and at times attacked him verbally.
The thing was, she was unable to control these outbursts, and she knew she wasnt being the nice sister she wanted to be. Her brother idolised his big sister, he was becoming a little crushed. he questioned her about what was wrong with him. But she was never able to give him any answers, nothing was ever clear. This continued for a few more months and we tried to control what we could. without always focussing on the negative. To his gift, he was probably just a normal 11 year old boy. But as time was ticking along I began questioning everything we did and thought. This was not working for anyone. even less so for our daughter. things i sensed were coming to a head and we were out of control as a family.

Normality…….

I took my daughter to the movies last night.
we drove in my car.
we went to Mcdonalds for tea.
we ate our food and occasionally laughed.
i bought the tickets to the movie,and bought her a chocolate dipped icecream.
We sat and watched the movie, chatted at times.
we drove home after the movie.
We slept like babies.